Tuesday, October 30, 2007

turbulence


turbulence (noun): a state of violent agitation.

Yep, that describes our flight from Portland to Anchorage yesterday. It may well have been the bumpiest flight I've ever experienced!

For most of the 4 1/2 hour flight, I chatted with my seat mate, a nice lady who's spent her last 40 years in Alaska. Becky has never married or had children and her life revolves around her 3 dogs. She's thinking about purchasing a Sheltie puppie this week, so of course I had to tell her all about Scout.

She may be having second thoughts now . . .

Anyway, I didn't get the vibe that she was religious until the turbulence started. Now keep in mind that this gal is a seasoned traveler--she's been all over Alaska in small planes and has made the trip to Portland and back more times than she could recount . . . but I'm telling you, this was one bumpy ride!

And the turbulence seemed to last forever. I just shut my eyes and prayed for either a quick landing or a quick death. I felt Becky reach for my hand a few times and once she even uttered a prayer:

"Dear God, help us! This ride is the sh-ts!"

"Amen"! I agreed.

Greg, who was sitting on the other side of me, remained silent. He told me later he was focusing all his energy on not depositing his supper in the barf bag.

We all survived and Greg and I are now settled in our B & B in Homer, Alaska, looking out over my beloved Kachemak Bay. Sure, we cheat death again (or so I imagine) nearly every time we make the trip up here--but it's worth it.

It will take more than a little turbulence to keep me from the place where my heart feels most at home . . .

Monday, October 29, 2007

On the road again


We leave tonight for Anchorage, AK and will head to Homer tomorrow. Greg is speaking at Men's Retreat on manly things and I'm recruiting for InterAct. How fun is that?

Poor Scout. Addle-brained as she is, she's figured out that when we get the suitcases out, her dog's life gets kind of dull. Clifford, our dearly departed cat, used to try to hide himself away in the suitcases and join us on our journeys (he never managed to camoflauge his 20 lbs. of orange fur, however).

Scout just chews up the carpet and looks depressed.

Danielle also whines and mopes a bit as we are packing, but this will be the last time we leave her behind--as a single person. She'll be the new Mrs. Mayfield the next time we head for the hills.

How weird is that?

Monday, October 22, 2007

Cruisin'



I feel kind of weird writing about our cruise--it just seems so darned indulgent. But it was a blast--I returned feeling incredibly refreshed and ready for action.

Some highlights of our very first cruise (with cruise-meisters Dave & Jen Proehl):

It was a 3 night trip out of Seattle, sailing to Victoria and Nanaimo BC. The Mercury was our home away from home.

We got to use our passports for the first time. Canada rocks, eh!

The cuisine was fantastic, each day a non-stop food-fest. We'd dress up for dinner each night and be escorted to our table in the Manhattan room. Our waiters were Wilmer (from Honduras) and Derry (from Jamaica). They were delightful! We found out that Wilmer had a wife and two boys and he spent six months at a time away from them working on the cruise ships. He'd only been home with his kids at Christmas once since they'd been born!

The first night, we were entertained by a comedian who made us laugh until our sides hurt. (The second night we all lost $20 playing bingo and were not so amused by the ventriloquist and his lecherous, alcoholic dummy. Yikes!)

We toured the Butchart Gardens in Victoria. The fall colors were spectacular--you can see a smidge of how amazing it was in the slide show. I can't remember the last time I "oohed" and "aahed" so enthusiastically. Dave P. described it as "Disneyland with all the rides broken."

Speaking of Dave, he nearly came to blows with several cruise mascots. A smiling moose and grinning dolphin met us as we disembarked in Victoria. They pretended to be our best friends until I tried to take a picture with my camera. After a stern rebuke by the ship's photographer, Dave muttered to the dolphin who had draped it's flippers around his shoulders, "Greedy dolphins. That's why we eat you!"

Whereupon the enraged dolphin challenged Dave to a fight, but we managed to drag him to safety. Surly sea mammal!

We forgot about the encounter until the next day when we stepped off the tender (shuttle boat) in Nanaimo. We were greeted by an eagle, his wings outspread for a welcoming embrace--until he apparently recognized Dave. Mr. Eagle lowered his wings and put up his dukes. We somehow got past him without incident, but it was quite the close call . . .

Who knew that a cruise could be so dangerous?

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Ode to Clifford

















I buried my cat, Clifford, today under a sycamore tree in the pouring rain. I will explain more about his death in a minute, but first, I want to focus on his nine lives . . .

We bought him as a fuzzy yellow furball from the Meadow Vista pet store in the Sierra foothills. It took some doing to get everyone to agree on a name, but we finally settled on Clifford. Most people assumed the name came from the story about the big red dog. Nope. Cliffie was named after the most obnoxious character in one of the more idiotic movies ever made: Clifford, which starred Martin short as a deranged young man.

My kids (and husband) were so enamored by the movie that a whole slew of pets were named after various characters. Those critters, like the movie itself, have disappeared and faded from our family consciousness.

But Clifford lived on . . .

As I added it up yesterday, he moved seven times with our family. We always managed to part with other pets before loading up the moving truck, but Clifford always wound up in the crate in the back of our car. The thought of leaving him behind was never even considered. I think all the relocating scarred Cliffie a bit, however. Anytime anyone in the family got out a suitcase to pack for a trip, Cliff would try to hide himself away in the luggage. There's not a suitcase in our home that doesn't have a bit of Clifford fur clinging to it somewhere . . .

Clifford had lots of big adventures in his relatively long cat-life. He survived maurading bands of coyotes (and owls) when we lived in the Sierra foothills. He once fell from the balcony rail of our 3rd-story apartment. He'd evidently jumped up on the precarious perch to watch Greg go to work. Obese animal that he was (Greg always called him the Oaf), Clifford's girth gave into gravity and he plunged to the parking lot below.

Greg didn't notice the falling feline, and the rest of us were puzzled by Cliffies' sudden disappearance. We searched the small apartment, then the surrounding grounds to no avail. We prayed for Clifford to come home, but it wasn't until about 5:00 that evening that we heard a frantic scratching on the front door. Clifford bolted in the apartment, wild-eyed and covered with burrs. He'd been awol since about 6 that morning, but we never got a word out of him about his big outing!

I've known cats with personality, but Clifford thought he was a person. He'd saunter into a room and start "talking" to anyone within earshot. You could actually carry on a conversation with that cat. (I swear Clifford could say "hello"). If he didn't get a response, he'd plop his gi-normous fur-ball of a body on the nearest lap and start kneading, purring loudly with claws fully extended and a silly grin on his face.

Scout was the bane of Clifford's existence. Every morning when I let Cliffie in from the garage, Scout would greet his furry pal with a vigorous face-licking, which elicited a violent vocal protest and a few half-hearted swats from Cliff. Undeterred, Scout would then begin to herd Clifford, nosing and nudging him in a direction that somehow made sense to Scout but totally annoyed the cat. Scout usually gave up after a few minutes and Clifford trotted unmolested up the stairs to my bedroom window, where he spent many happy hours surveying his domain.

This might sound macabre, but Clifford died with a smile on his furry little face. After I got home from work yesterday, I popped into Danielle's room to chat with the girls. Clifford followed me in, with Scout right behind him. Clifford made the rounds of the small room, marching across the keyboard of Candyce's computer, rubbing up against me, announcing his regal presence. Then he jumped up on Danielle's bed, curled up next to her pillow and started snoring.

At least that's what we thought he was doing. He was making such a racket that I nudged him, trying to get him to change positions and stop snoring so loudly (like I often do with my husband . . .) But as soon as I touched Cliffie, I realized something was wrong, that he was having a hard time breathing. I ran into my bathroom to grab a towel, thinking I'd wrap him up and take him to the vet.

But when I returned, before I could even wrap the towel around him, Clifford gave one last shudder and was gone. Just like that!

Greg thinks he had a kitty heart attack. There was no indication that Cliffie was sick, in fact, he'd spent the morning romping like a kitten with Scout in the leaves Greg was trying to rake. And animals usually wander off to be alone when they know they are about to die--but Cliff came and plopped down in the middle of those he loved and drew his last breath. How amazing is that?

I will miss Cliffie. 12 years is the longest I've ever had a pet--he was such a part of our family. And poor Scout is still wondering what happened to her best friend . . .

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

the prostitute and the church lady


OK, well she probably wasn't a prostitute. They at least get paid for their services, she probably gave her body in exchange for food or maybe a warm place to sleep at night. But for 27 years Bonnie lived on the streets, surviving in a dangerous world I can't even imagine.

Jesus asked her one night if He could have her heart, and Bonnie, tired of her never-ending struggles, said OK.

And He took her by the hand and led her into the Throne Room of Grace, where she's lived happily ever after.

She shed her old identity like a snake sheds its skin and clothed herself in His righteousness. She doesn't need counseling to heal the abuses of the past--or recovery groups to help free her from addictions. She swallowed the Truth Jesus offered her hook, line and sinker--and it has set her free, indeed.

She knows she's His Bride. She knows who her Daddy is.

I know all this, because Bonnie sat beside me at Bible study last night. We were talking about how Christians wear masks because we think we need to be perfect. We lamented the fact that we all struggled to realize and live in His grace.

Except for Bonnie. She looked at us like we were all a bit looney.

"I'm not perfect--I screw up a lot--but I just crawl up on His lap and let Him love me," she told us. "I didn't have anything to offer when I came to Him--and don't now--He just loves me because I'm His daughter."

Carol, who'd grown up in the church, couldn't grasp Bonnie's words.

"I've just always felt such expectations--such high standards to live up to," Carol said. "I never feel like I'm quite good enough to draw near to Him. How is it that you understand His grace so well?"

Bonnie thought for a minute, then replied, "Ya know that prostitute that Jesus talked to? He told her that because she was forgiven so much, she would love much. I'm telling you, that's me! He loves me and I love Him!"

After our study was over, I chatted with Bonnie for a few minutes. I thanked her for sharing her beautiful, grace-filled heart with us.

"Oh, I just want to hug the stuffings out of that Carol," said Bonnie, shaking her head as we watched Carol head for the door. "And make her get how much God loves her! But I guess only He can do that . . ."

That's true, I reflected on the drive home. But why is it that some learn that truth so much quicker than others?

Sunday, October 07, 2007

rehearsal dinner



Images and symbols can be easily misinterpreted. And the misunderstanding can result in confusion and even harm if the true meaning behind the symbol is not grasped.

For Lindsay, it was the engraving of Little Boy Blue on Jonah's headstone.

For me, it was communion.

As a wee Catholic lass, I was taught that the wafer and the wine became the actual flesh and blood of Christ once the priest had blessed it. Only the priest could handle the sacred Host, and we'd kneel at the altar to receive the costly gift. Once I overheard some altar boys whispering about a kid they knew who held the wafer carefully in his mouth until he got home. He stuck out his tongue in the mirror to see his prize and was quite astonished to see blood oozing out from his teeth marks in the wafer. After hearing that story, I felt bad about chewing on Jesus and would try to swallow the wafer as quickly as possible. I was always quite relieved when that part of the Mass was over.

Once I became an evangelical Christ-follower, the practice of communion changed a bit. I attended a church that served "The Lord's Supper" every week. The spongy wafer and real wine were replaced by stale crackers and grape juice that we helped ourselves to from a passing tray. We were instructed--usually during a somber communion meditation--to remember Christ's sacrifice as we "partook of the elements." But only if we'd examined our hearts (with heads bowed and eyes closed), repented of our sins, and had judged ourselves worthy to participate in this ritual. The gratitude I felt--if I decided my heart was clean enough to take communion that week--was always slightly tinged with guilt.

I was always a bit relieved when the house lights came back up and all the empty little communion cups were nestled safely in their holders . . .

Just recently, however, I've approached communion with a new attitude. What used to feel like a memorial service for Jesus--focusing only upon His suffering and my sin--now draws me in like a joyous celebration as I meditate on His sacrifice of love and look forward to the Wedding Supper of the Lamb.

Jesus gave His life to redeem His Bride!

"Rehearsal Dinner" is the term that comes to mind these days as I munch my cracker and slurp my juice--with eyes wide open, by the way. I've been to a few of those lately. Rehearsal dinners are times of remembering (so, how did you two meet, anyway?), but more than that--they are times of anticipating the glorious union to come!

Surely that's what Jesus, the Bridegroom, had in mind during His last supper on this planet: "Take, eat, for this is My Body. Drink, all of you, for this is My blood of the new covenant shed for the remission of sins. But I say to you, I will not drink the fruit of the vine from now on until I drink it new with you in My Father's kingdom". (Matthew 26:26-29)

Wow, that is going to be some wedding party--drinking new wine with Jesus in the Father's house! I can't help but smile these days as the communion tray comes around . . .

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Quote for the Day


"Christianity began in Palestine as a relationship, moved to Greece and became a philosophy, went to Rome and became an institution, moved to Europe and became a culture, finally it came to America and became an enterprise.” - Richard Halverson