rest

So, I've been on my adrenal building regimen for about a month now. And I'm pleased to report that I'm sleeping again--usually between 7 and 9 hours every night! After I started taking Seriphos (a supplement that reduces cortisol levels), I noticed immediate results.

My body didn't want to sleep when I started taking the supplements--I felt like I was in a wrestling match most nights trying to fall--and then stay--asleep. But as the supplements did their job and I diligently removed stressors from my waking life, sleep returned to me like a long-lost friend.

Now, I feel like I can't get enough. And waking up from a good night's sleep still seems like a miracle to me!

I'm still tired, however, which is frustrating. I just assumed my strength and energy would return as soon as I started sleeping. That has not been the case. I get bursts of energy here and there--and I'm learning to be very productive during those times. But then I'll run out of gas and turn to pudding until I can recharge overnight once again.

I'm pretty tuckered out spiritually, too. Shouldn't be surprised, I guess, since I know how connected the body, soul and spirit are. I'm trying to build up my spirit much in the same way I'm trying to help my body heal: providing good food (the Word), removing stress (casting all my cares on Him--and not watching scary or intense movies), and cultivating rest (trying not to jump into ministry at our new fellowship before the Lord gives me the green light).

I was hoping to feel a bit more restored by now, but truth be told, I don't. In fact, I feel weak as a kitten, wanting nothing more than just to stay curled up in the safety of my own home. And the cool thing is that I don't feel the Father trying to boot me out the door--I feel Him carrying me close to His heart. He's giving me permission to be still and rest . . .

"In repentence and rest is your salvation . . . in quietness and trust is your strength, says the Lord." Isaiah 30:15