weakness

I used to think, back when I first gave my broken life to Jesus, that He would fix me. That He would make me strong so I could do great things for Him.

No one ever told me that I would continually become weaker, relying less and less upon my own strengths and abilities. Depending more and more upon Him.

All of God's servants throughout the Bible are fraught with weaknesses. Moses stuttered and struggled with anger, David succumbed to lust and turned to murder and deception to cover up his sin. Peter vacillated between fear and impudence and Paul battled physical ailments.

Why didn't God choose more worthy men? Why doesn't he make me braver/smarter/healthier?

Francis Frangipane writes:

Why is the Lord so attracted to the lowly? He knows the weaker His servant,
the more genuinely he will give glory to God. The fact is, the Lord seeks those who know their flaws. Paul testifies that
"God has chosen the weak things of the world to shame the things which are
strong. . .the things that are not, that He might nullify the things that
are, so that no man may boast before God" (1 Cor. 1:27-29).

"That no man may boast before God." Our weaknesses are an asset. God has
chosen you, not because of your strength, but because you are weak. I am not
talking about our sinfulness, but our weaknesses and lack of pedigree. Do
not excuse yourself from God's calling because you think you are a
"nothing." You are making progress, passing everyone who thinks they are
something when they are nothing.

Before God, we are all nothing, and we can do nothing of lasting value apart
from Him. It is in our lowliness that God's glory rises to its greatest
heights.

More weak and wobbly thoughts to come . . .